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9월 28일 My Horse, BlazeAs a young girl, my world began on my eighth birthday when I received a horse of my very own. My horse, Blaze, was a beautiful sorrel quarter horse with a white blaze down his forehead and two white socks that wrapped around his two back legs. His mane and tail were a dark dirty blonde color; each piece was strong and coarse. His coat was short and shiny during the summer; the sun would glisten from his body. During the winter his coat would get thick and fuzzy; when I placed my hand upon him it would vanish beneath all of his hair. Blaze had large hooves for feet that enabled him to walk carefree across rocks and black top roads. I loved the escape into the unknown when taking an afternoon horseback ride. It was almost as if we were one entity; my body movement molded into the same rhythm as his. Blaze was always slow and gentle as if he sensed I was small and frail. While riding, the smell of leather would twirl up from the saddle to my nostrils. The soft pounding of his heavy hooves on the dirt, the even paced clop over the black top, the quiet squeak of the leather saddle, together they formed a soothing symphony that tickled my ears with delight. Blaze was my moving sanctuary. He was my gateway to freedom and peace away from my chaotic and dysfunctional home life. Approximately eight years later, for the first time, I got to feel the pang of loss. It was disheartening to say the least. I felt as though my world had ended when my father told me of his decision to sell Blaze. I did not have time to react because the new owner of Blaze was pulling into the driveway with his trailer in tow. As the trailer left my drive, and the memories of Blaze raced through my mind, I tasted the salty, wet tears of loss. 9월 2일 UpdateHello to all. I apologize for the desertion of my own blog. There is so much going on at this present time. It would really help if I could get a little bit of it off my chest. And, sense a few of you would like an update...here it is: As far as my mom is concerned, I still do not have any news. I am worried as she told me that the doctor is worried. My mother was supposed to get her surgery to remove the cancer on the 28th. This did not happen. She had surgery on her stomach back in July. Well, she is not healed enough from the last surgery so they have refused to perform the surgery she currently needs. There has been a new date set of Sept. 18. The problem I am having w/all of this is that the doctor cannot see the cancer and therefore does not know what stage it is in. The only way they will know is to go on in and take a look. Those of you that have been diligent with your prayers for my mom I can only request that you would remain a prayer warrior on her behalf. I will try to not be so self-consumed in the future and update my blog w/regard to her accordingly. Next, I have started school. My life is once again non-existent. I am having a real hard time getting back into the grove of things. I am going to enjoy all of my classes I already know it ;-). The horses are doing pretty good but have not been without incident. There is a new scar on my left leg due to a little mishap with Blue. His front hoof found its way to the front of my lower leg. Yep...it sure did leave a mark. He also decided to continue acting a fool and his chest landed on a post which resulted in quite a few stitches. He also got one of his hind legs over a five wire high barbed wire fence. Then good ol Hidalgo ended up running head on into the fence which caused him to flip head first over it. It has been one thing after the next with those two young dummies. And to think I thought castrating them would help with those sort of actions. I will have to post new pics of them cause they are really growing. I also have a good pic of Blue's wound after busting all the stitches out (when he got in the fence). As for the Women's Conference... I am still speaking there. The invitations have gone out w/my name mentioned! I will also be leading a workshop there. The church got the money to fly me home for the weekend. I am excited but have not really started w/the preparations like I need to. God will work in this though...I just know it! My relationship with God is growing. Now if He will just send me a man! I am not that worried about it but I do find myself thinking about it often. Oh I can't forget work. It is really moving along. I am making some progress w/the girls. There is a mutual respect that is growing between them and myself. I have 3 girls and 2 babies living within the home currently. One of the girls is due in November. I am anticipating the delivery of the new baby...it is going to be an exciting time! I will hopefully get to take her to the hospital. Thanks to those of you that have not given up on me. I do enjoy writing here and getting feedback from you. Life is just consuming me though. Have you ever felt that way? I think I need training in time management. 7월 20일 A Prayer For MomYesterday I received very disturbing news. My mother has yet another form of cancer. She needs an operation but cannot have it performed for another few months due to a recent surgery. The doctor said that this prior surgery incision needs to heal before they can do the next.
I am just asking that you will pray for God's will to be done in this situation. Pray that if it is in His plan to heal my mother that it be done. And, that in the mean time He give her the peace and comfort that only He can provide. Thank you all. 7월 11일 RamblingAdventure has always been appealing to me. What I consider adventure is experiencing something new. I would love to have a new experience everyday, and, if I reflected upon each day I would probably realize that I do. But yesterday was definitely a new experience. I witnessed for the first time a castration. As a matter of fact I witnessed two of them. It was high time to have both of my studs (horses) gelded. I have not had any real problems out of them that would not allow me to handle them, but I don't want to wait until something happens. Their purpose is to be loveable creatures that people of all ages can interact with. As for the experience, I wish I watched someone elses horse be gelded. The sympathic pain I felt for them was hard on me. However, I am happy to be able to put one more thing I have done/witnessed in my little book.
There is a new book that I am currently reading. It is called "Captivating." I am sure some of you have heard of it. By the time I reached the 34th page I was captivated. This is an amazing book. It is teaching me why I am the way I am. It talks about the heart of a woman. Who I am way down deep. It puts words and reasons behind the feelings that I cannot explain. By the time I finish this book I hope to have a better understanding of who I am, why I feel what I feel, what I need, and how to lead a fulfilling life by putting into practice the new knowledge I have discovered. All women are different yet our hearts are all still the same. Not the heart that pumps blood throughout your entire body, but the heart that is the center of your person...your inner being. God knows that our heart is the root of who we are. It determines how we live and how we feel. God told us: "Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life." Proverbs 4:23. If our heart is the "wellspring of life" why wouldn't we want to drink from it? Why not find out exactly how it ticks? That is what this book is helping me to accomplish. True it is only a step in the right direction or the first stone to be unturned, but I am determined to discover the person God has created. He has put His time into each one of us and has weaved such intricate details that we are more than worth exploring. I will try to update with the information that I learn while reading. Even so, I still recommend that you read this one for yourself (the women). If you are a man and would like to explore why you are the way you are then I recommend "Wild at Heart." Both books are written by John & Stasi Eldredge. If you are interested in either just click on the link that I have provided and it will give you some information. I also hear that it is beneficial to read the one that pertains to the opposite sex as well. People have said that it helps them to interact with the opposite sex on a deeper more meaningful level.
Hope everyone is doing well. I miss spacing around. I guess we will all get back into it when summer is over. This really is the busiest time of the year :-). Toodles. 6월 28일 Prayer RequestAt times I feel as if my life is finally pulling together and is headed down the right road. Today is one of those days. It is because with every opportunity my mind gallivants down the road of endless possibilities. Most would call this state of partly unrealistic mind flirtations that have been derived from one simple opportunity, daydreaming. Because I am very susceptible to daydreaming, I am asking as many that read this to pray for me. I have been asked by my Pastor's wife to speak at a Woman's Conference this October. I would only have to prepare for a 20 min speech. Now, I have been hoping that I would get the opportunity to speak in front of people. I want to share what God has taught me and shown me with other people. The problems are: 1) I don't feel as if I am the best candidate to deliver a speech to these women. Yes, yes, I know that God is glorified in our weaknesses and the strange thing is is that Teresa (my Pastor's wife) said that I was the first person that came to her mind when she was told to find speakers for this event. She wants me to share my testimony. 2) I don't know if I will have the money to travel to Maryland in order to speak. Yes, God provides and is always faithful in doing so.
I guess these problems really do not amount to a whole lot. Either way, I do want to pray about this and have others praying with me. I want to be sure that I hear loud and clear from the Lord Most High.
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